One upside to training

After being out of school for 13 years, I am finally getting new anxiety dreams. For the longest time I would have reoccurring school dreams based on the variations of:

1. Not being able to find my classes
2. Realizing that I never went to class and had to take a test
3. And later, wondering what on earth I would do with my children in a dorm

I am happy to report that I have now had a couple of triathlon anxiety dreams, along the lines of:

1. Can't figure out where the course is
2. Can't get everything together to actually leave the transition area
3. The ever popular "I'm running but not actually going anywhere"
4. And last night, I kept returning to transition for forgotten items and at one point left my bike somewhere and when I returned it was gone

I am finally feeling better and did a short swim last night that seemed ok. Tonight I'd like to ride my bike an hour and see how that goes. The rest of my training program up until the race next weekend is all shorter taper stuff and I think I can jump back on. I need to keep reminding myself that I did the hard training, I did 3-4 weeks of 15 hours and it's all mostly still there... somewhere.

By Monday I need to have most of my race gear ready. Rather than trust our bikes to the airlines, my group is using a triathlon bike transport company. They will take the bikes on Monday, along with a gear bag (so hopefully I won't have to pay a checked bagged fee). My flight is on Thursday, the race on Saturday. I think if I was running at 100%, I'd even be getting excited.